I Have Emotions and I Can’t Be Happy All The Time.

Today has been rough and many tears shed. The yelling and short temper is a lot to bare. To feel that your the reason when it’s the situation your in that is the problem not you.

That has taken an emotional toll on me so when my mother and I spoke I began to question a lot.

My mom found an email my sister sent me four years ago after her son was born. I never received the email because I don’t use that account anymore.

Watching it I began to question if I was ever a good sister or even a good person. I missed out on so much because of a stupid fight. Watching the video I realized my sister needed me and wanted me after becoming a mother for the first time and I never showed. I remained absent and distant.

I‘ve wrote about this and awaiting for the editor to approve it for submission so you can read more into that. I’m just as human as you are and I fight my own battles. I am slowly understanding more of what it means to be human and how to sift through all the emotions.